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Wednesday, March 30, 2011 10:06 AM
Recently what I am busy with, actually quite routine, just not much motivation to blog about. However, tried to bring Chloe out to market or ran some errands. So far so good, at least brought her to walk around and don't have to be trapped at home whole day. Oh yeah, starts to look for job... My run away life is going to end soon! Or is another kind of Run Away life as full time mummy at home?.... ><
In fact, I don't think I am suitable to be full time mum at home. Of course, seeing Chloe grows up happily and cheerfully day by day is a bless but when you have to deal with her everyday plus 24/7 hours, then you can't really tell the much difference of yesterday and today. That's my main problem for too monotonous life.
I do think how to improve this kind of life e.g. bringing her out by myself, to do little shopping, off on weekend etc. But I still need back to the reality to juggle milk bottles, diapers, toys and nap times. I hate nap times, is not that I don't like Chloe to sleep, of course if she can sleep tight then will be no problem for me but what if she naps half an hour then need me to soothe her back to sleep again and again in order for her to sleep longer then makes me tedious. I just don't understand why babies find it so hard to sleep tight and fall asleep by themselves...
Just some woes, but that's my current life. Sounds pathetic but when you see her smiley and innocent face then you can't blame her for torturing you mentally. That's the angel and devil of a baby I guess. Just wondering how other full time mummies can endure this kind of life, or because I am not patient enough?! In fact Chloe is not a crying baby, just when she slept not enough then will become cranky. Most of the time she enjoys my singing and my companion, but because I am the sole caregiver most of the time, she becomes very relying on mummy. Sometimes even wanna watch tv only with me by her side. She doesn't need me to carry her, she just wants me to sit there and accompany her.
Compared to those what I read from forum about those fussy babies, I know Chloe can be considered as good girl. She can play herself half an hour in her cot in the morning then give you a big smiley face when you greet her. She pays full attention to mummy when mummy sings and reads to her. Whenever she becomes irritated, mummy sings to her will do. Am I too greedy ? I just wish to have another pair of hands to help me when I need some rest or when I not enough sleep, but day time only is ME, ME, ME. What about my father-in-laws, ha ha, whenever he approaches, Chloe will be alerted. If she is not in good mood then sure cry, not even her grandpa touches her so her grandpa will just run away. So what can I do?
Ha ha, many might wonder I am having good life as no need to work and just purely taking care of little one. Yup, is really a good life if you have enough sleep the night before and then she can sleep tight during day time. Some might wonder, 'I don't have to work then why can't I rest while she is napping?'. But how? When I almost fall asleep then her half hour almost due, then I need to wake up again to comfort her, that's torturing thus I rather I don't sleep/rest. So basically, I work as in office day time, no nap time at all.
However, I do feel guilty to back to work as I don't have financially problem and I can take care of Chloe myself at home. With mummy, I guess this is the best for an infant. Thus I struggle and struggle, hard to make decision whether wanna back to work. But, a happy mummy then a happy baby right? If my life all about her, then what about ME myself and my hubby. Hubby asked, whether I will be happy if I back to work? Honestly, I don't know, as I know there will be problems still when I back to work. But, never try never know, I just wish to have a change. I wanna carry on with my life and not only with baby matters.
Ha ha, you may find weird that I complain so much. I am still a content mummy to see giggling Chloe and I am happy to see a healthy Chloe. I may or may not find a suitable job or I may or may not back to work but I am sure which way I want to go now. Wish me luck! ^^
On your speaker, Ha ha, I don't know was Chloe entertaining me or was I entertaining her.
6 comment(s) so far...
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hmm...sounds like we have a tired mum here :)
Although I'm still single, I helped my mum to babysit Cammy from new born till around 2 or 3 years old (till I completed my studies & got a job). It's really no joke when you have to do it all by yourself. Juggling the feeding/napping/washing up & repeat this schedule for several times a day + gotta maintain the entire house clean & tidy!! I can still remember 'bouncing' the sarong until I dozed off and Cammy has yet to sleep!!
It's tough..but it's also memorable....the rest of my nieces/nephews were brought up by babysitters or the other side of grandparents, I had zero memories of how they grew up : (
Give yourself some more time....you'll definitely be able to find a way to deal with the 'schedule'
btw..i can't see the videos. Tried viewing it at both IE & Safari, both also cannot play the video...
By Tracy on
Friday, April 01, 2011 1:01 AM
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Ha ha, yup indeed, is a bored mummy here. Sometimes is not really tiring, just being bored to repeat the routine again and again. I am sure you nodded your head while reading what I blogged based on your experience in babysitting Cammy last time.
Is really memorable, even now I already started to imagine if I am working, then what I will miss most with Chloe. The time she giggles, the time she smiles at me while I am looking at her, many many more. That's why I am stuck whether to re-enter work force. Is kinda tough to decide. But I am still see see look look for suitable job, if can find the one then I think is time to let go.
I tried the video, is okay to load. Is MP4 format and is using Quicktime to play. Do you have Quicktime installed?
By Qiao Ting on
Friday, April 01, 2011 10:09 AM
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Try to go out more frequent....babies will get so excited with the surroundings, then it'll exhaust their energy, then they'll fall asleep very fast & sleep very long :)
In IE, the default player is Realplayer..
& in Safari, the default player is Quicktime
but both also can't playback leh...weird...
By tracy on
Friday, April 01, 2011 2:48 PM
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Yeah, try to go out almost everyday for short trips. Challenge myself, ha ha.
The video takes some time to load, maybe I ask cw to try at his laptop later. :)
By Qiao ting on
Friday, April 01, 2011 10:45 PM
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ai... what you mentioned above actually is faced by all mummy in this world, especially full time mummy at home. When I take care of Jo En during the 2nd months, I also feel damn tired, bored, and so busy from morning till night. When all 'settle' down and got time to talk to husband, I already almost 'end of battery' and wanna sleep & rest... But yet, when seeing kids' innocent face and smile, think is worthwhile....
when Chloe is full and enough sleep, this is best time to let her 'get familiar' with grandpa. give her sometime, baby can be trained, slowly she will love her grandpa very much, can ask your FIL bring her go jalan-jalan in the evening...
Jo Ee also cannot sleep long during the day time, she sometime sleep 30 minutes for naps, 1 hr, if lucky she can sleep 2-3 hrs. If she wake up after 30 minutes, I wont pat her again, let her wake up and try to pat her after 1-2 hrs, then she can sleep longer then. I not sure this is best practice, just dont want to force her and tiring myself to pat her. Now she is about 7kg++, sooner not really can carry her and pat her to get into sleeping mode :p
No comment whether you should go back to work, but I am sure that when she cry and refuse go to childcare, you definitely will feel 'bu she de' and heart pain...
BTW, now Chloe sleep alone in another room thru out the night?
I can open the video, very cute...
By hooi ni on
Sunday, April 03, 2011 8:14 AM
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Ha ha, thanks to let me know that is normal for me to feel so. :) anyway, when hugging the happy chloe just like having the world.
Hee hee, is my FIL doesn't have the courage to challenge himself too. I also ask him to sit down to play with Chloe when she is okay, but you know guys especially an old man, what can you ask for more from him. To him, Chloe not crying when see him then is enough. He also dunno how to play with her. Lol. I got told him like this like that then he said he dunno..... Dun have the intention to learn too. ><
I understand that. I also will let her wake up if she really fully awake then another 2 hours to nap again. But each day should have a period to have a longer nap and if every time nap only half an hour then I lagi tiring to pat her sleep for so many rounds.. ;(
Will feel heart pain but need to have 'she' then 'de' gua. I wish for healthier life. :)
Yeah, wanna let her sleep alone in her room but the room is really noisy as facing the main road so have to change my room with her..taking time to shift. Plus now she cant sleep tight at night for this month then need to wake up to soothe her so delay again. No problem to let her sleep alone, just the condition now not allowed. Sianz...
By Qiao ting on
Sunday, April 03, 2011 7:58 PM
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